This how we starting the 4th Quarter, huh?

I was having a conversation with a colleague recently about the usual corporate America gripes that are plaguing our division currently. Amongst the indepth analysis and issue inventory that our chat consisted of, at one point I responded with “Have the same energy when you get what you want that you did when you asked for it.” I saw that the comment gave her pause & a moment of processing, which caught my attention. I wondered how that stuck her, as I was just talking amongst the flow of conversation, not trying to make a declarative statement. But I could see that it was a something that was going to sit with her for a moment.

Driving into the office this morning, I revisited that moment. And I remembered something I’ve heard often from people far more grown than me : “Spend time listening to God, and He’ll definitely send you a message” or some variation of that. And I realized there really is a word for ME in that statement.

“Have the same energy when you get what you want that you did when you asked for it.”

So I reflected on things I’d been longing for recently, versus the things that I’m blessed to have and the connections between them really struck me. Amongst the many prayers I submit daily, the most consistent thing that I ask for is PEACE. I think as I’ve matured, the way I value peace is far different than the young man who valued possession, regardless of the cost. At this point, I just can’t fathom sacrificing “having” at the cost of peace. I’d rather do without.

I didn’t expect peace to be obtained via subtraction though. Maybe that’s what God has been doing my whole life, distancing me from relatives, former associates, etc., to directly address my request for peace. Like most of us, I mourn the loss of connection, especially ones that I truly value, so much so that sometimes I miss the blessing in it. There are a few folks that I miss & still love dearly, but I realize that I just miss the good memories, briefly forgetting how much the bad memories outweigh them. I asked for peace, so God removed those who stressed me. Shit, they probably were praying for the same peace and God yeeted my ass up outta their lives. I hope they know I fought Him alot because I didn’t want to let go, but eventually, I surrendered. I just have to remember to have the same energy when I get what I want that I did when I asked for it. Tough as hell to do.

On the flip side, there are ALOT of people that I miss and still have fond feelings for that need to stay waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy the fuck over there, right where they are.

I’m out, y’all be easy.

Peace & ❤️